"you do not support the root, but the root supports you."

Yesterday I set about making a birthday card for Grandma's birthday. With Sense and Sensibility playing in the background, and this beautiful belt gifted to me from my sister as my inspiration, I started painting.

Eva has a huge box of old letters in her room that she's sorting through right now. It really made me glad for my own letter-writing, but I wonder if I shouldn't be a little more decisive in it - that is, that I could ask more meaningful questions and because of that, cherish the answers even more. Surely that is a precious thing about letter-writing? That one can express more through writing than can be expressed in spoken word. Part of me wants to splurge on a box to hold them all, but instead I went on a little wander round the charity shops first and stumbled across these two dresses.

I'll finish with one of my favourite quotes from the film Bright Star:

"A poem needs understanding through the senses. The poing of diving in a lake is not immediately to swim to the shore; it's to be in the lake, to luxuriate in the sensation of water. You do not work the lake out... it is an experience beyond thought. Poetry soothes and emboldens the soul to accept mystery."

1950s helsingborg

Yesterday was a blast from the past - and I mean that in two ways. I took a step back to my '40s and '50s life a few years back during a trip to Helsingborg, and got terribly homesick. Pair this trip with the Carol soundtrack on loop and my red lipstick and perhaps you'll see why.

Helsingborg is home to the wonderful Ebbas Fik, a 1950s style cafe. You can order delicious homemade burgers and wedges (with the potato skins on) or a dazzling selection of fika items, and pay 1 kronor to pick a song on the jukebox. I chose The Hollies - I'm Alive, and truly, the place came alive in that moment. The two-tone custard yellow and turquoise walls were bedecked with movie posters, and adverts, and there were shelves full of books and records for your perusal (and your pennies; they were all for sale). I felt transported.

I wandered the streets. Sweden has frozen over again this week, yet the skies were a beautiful blue, and the sun cast long golden rays across the streets. Sweden is a strange country, in the sense that it is incredibly easy to lose sense of which era you're in. The architecture has a timeless quality to it, with most of its old buildings and cobbled streets intact, and it is not so difficult to imagine how the streets might have looked fifty, eighty, even a hundred and fifty years in the past.

The next stop on my rather brief tour was to Dunkers kulturhus to the exhibition Vivian Maier: Street Photographer. The life of Vivian Maier (1926-2009) is little-known and somewhat sad. Working quietly as a nanny for 40 years, a 'real, live Mary Poppins', she spent her free time taking over 150,000 photographs of life in Chicago and New York. Her body of work was never published in her lifetime, and many of the photographs were still in negative form, unprinted. One of the curators of her work, John Maloof, said of her that 'she was a Socialist, a Feminist, a movie critic, and a tell-it-like-it-is type of person... She was constantly taking pictures, which she didn't show anyone.' Like so many great artists, she was never aware of the impact of her life's work.

Self portrait, ca.1956

Self portrait, ca.1956

ca.1953-8

ca. 1953-8

ca. 1953-8

"every sound has its own handwriting"

Skåne is the Wales of Sweden: if you look out of your window, it is probably raining. It is quite easy to let it dampen down your creativity, and surviving winter still being able to occasionally produce art is something of a joy to me. I have to constantly remind myself that 'creativity' covers a multitude of things, from sketching, to weaving, to reading, to cooking. And just because there isn't always a finished piece or physical outcome, it doesn't make it any less of an achievement. 

If you had asked me a year and a half ago what I wanted to do in my life, I would have probably given a look of existential crisis. I was working as a teaching assistant in a rough school and although I loved the kids to bits, I spent my working life with my nerves in tatters, knowing that as soon as I left the staff room after my lunch I would be the one at the centre of gossip, just like whoever had left before me.

Coming to Sweden has been a life-changing experice, and I don't say that lightly. In addition to being able to speak the language better than ever now, God gave me a completely fresh start. It has allowed for my creativity, lifestyle, and spiritual gifts to blossom in a way that I never realised was possible. Every day is an act of thanksgiving for the wonderful privileges I have here. And even the rainy days hold something utterly dreamy to them 

...another return to blogging?

the rainy weather and the long dark hours have caused me to reconsider resuming my somewhat erratic posting on here. part of me wanted to start afresh. don't expect anythig much. we'll see what happens...

The Girl in Green

As anybody who has seen my bedroom knows, I have a bit of a thing about the colour green. This also extends to my wardrobe. Today I decided to go for my green 2-piece knitted set, which I haven't worn together for a long time. I decided to go with my red Torpatoffeln clogs (please note: open-toe clogs and freezing temperatures do not a comfortable experience make).

On my way back home, I had a little look in my local vintage/retro shop, where I found a lovely little jumper in exactly the same shade of green as my outfit!

Jumper: Vintage from Really Me 

Trousers: Charity Shop

(The Book is Känner du Pippi Långstrump?

The Return of the Vintage Vegan

After an extremely long pause, I have returned - not only to the blogosphere, but to the world of vintage lifestyle! An awful lot has happened since I last made a proper post on this blog (back in September 2013)... I've graduated from university, gotten a job, and have tried many different new things, from making new friendships to dyeing and cutting my hair in all manner of colours and all manner of ways. But now, after a break from vintage (apart from only the briefest of forays during the past year or so) I have found myself being pulled towards it once more. It was time to give my blog a little renovation, so I jazzed it up with a new name and a bit of a design change!

So, for your viewing pleasure, here are a couple of photographs from the past year...

Let's start off near-ish the beginning. I decided to bleach my hair and dye it all sorts of interesting colours:

But after a little while, I rewatched The Hour for the millionth time, and went to see Mojo in London, and I had a little bit of androgynous 1950s revival.

Not long after that, it was all change again. As I grew out my hair, I submitted my dissertation (and later found out that I got a First!)

THEN, I decided, in the heat of my new all-consuming Scandinavian passion, that I would go blonde. So I did. I even celebrated Midsommar like a true Swede (or at least, that's what it felt like...)

What's more, I even graduated!

 The next big thing was In The Flesh, a BAFTA-winning BBC show, all about the reintegration of the undead (known as PDS - Partially Deceased Syndrome - sufferers) after a stabilising drug is created. I am still full of praise for this programme. It dealt with so many issues in a brilliant way: mental health, sexuality, loss, prejudice... the list goes on and on. I got myself some "rotter" contacts and scared people out on the street, and for Halloween, where I went less "rotter" and more "walker" as I began my binge of the Walking Dead.

And then came the Big Chop. In a "now or never" sort of moment, I decided to shave off all of my hair.

All of this happened in just about a year. For a couple of weeks now, the '30s, '40s and '50s have been worming their way back into my life. And last week, I decided to take the leap and get my clothes back out of storage. This was all down to the wonderful The Fiercest Lilliputian and her hair, which is only a little longer than mine. She has an amazing vintage look, and she rocks is with this hair. I finally felt I had the courage to return to it myself, instead of waiting for my hair to grow into a more "vintage" cut. 

So hello again! I hope you haven't completely forgotten me.

Jess x

Norwegian Meatballs

T-shirt - Game of Thrones design 'Send a Raven' by Jonito on Qwertee

Skirt - charity shop

Clogs - Torpatoffeln from Ebay

I have been meaning to post the recipes for these things for quite some time now, so here they are! I cook these meatballs and the sauce at least once a fortnight - they are absolutely delicious and my family love them!
The meatballs are easy to make and with the mixture you get 2 trayfulls so you can freeze them and use them for a quick supper, but if you want to buy meatballs from the supermarket it will save you some time. If you do choose to do this I would recommend going for the smaller Swedish meatballs (I know this kind is available in Tesco and Sainsbury's in the UK, and IKEA do great freezer packs of them too). The sauce is absolutely delicious too, and with quite a mild but distinct flavour, and perfect and filling now it will start to get colder. Again, there are some good packet mixes out there (I love the IKEA ones and have a stash of them in the cupboard!). I would recommend getting hold of some lingonberry sauce/jam to go with it, as it tastes a real treat.

Please note that none of the following recipes are my own, they are from the fantastic book Scandilicious by Signe Johansen.

My dad, the chief taster!

A quicck salad

MEATBALLS
Cook one peeled and finely chopped onion until soft. When the onion turns translucent, add 1 tbsp ground allspice, 1 level tsp ground nutmeg and 1/2 level tsp ground ginger. Leave to cool.
Pour 225g whole milk mixed with 1 tbsp yoghurt with 3 slices (c.110g) stale white bread. Leave for a few minutes until it's absorbed before adding it to the rest of the mixture. 
Mix together 500g veal mince  and 500g lamb mince (you can really use whatever mince you want, or whatever is in your price range - I can only afford it for special occasions!) with the cooked onion, 1 egg yolk and some salt and pepper. Add the milk and bread mixture and mix it all together. Form into little meatballs with your hands and you're ready to go.
The meatballs can be grilled for 10-15 minutes, or you can pop them in the oven for a similar amount of time (180°C is usually fine).


SAUCE/GRAVY
NOTE: I don't live in a big city and I have no way of getting hold of the ekte geitost mentioned in this recipe. If you're having trouble too, Signe recommends Marmite instead, mixed with a little Crème fraîche and brown sugar.

Bring 1 litre beef/veal stock to the boil and reduce by about half. Add 100ml brandy (if brandy/whiskey is out of your way, you don't have to use any) and simmer until you can't smell any more alcohol. Add  300ml Crème fraîche, 100g grated ekte geitost (Norwegian brown goat's cheese) OR a teaspoon Marmite, a teaspoon or brown sugar and a teaspoon Crème fraîche; and 2tbsp grated dark chocolate/cacao. Season to taste and simmer for a little longer. 
You can mix the meatballs in to the sauce/gravy or serve them seperately.

Bon appetit!




NEXT TIME: Cardamom and almond cake, and Arme riddere cinnamon toast.

Jess xx